this is the last of illusions
this is the final trace of innocence
if I'm caught in the middle
i know it will be the end of me
Sunday, October 16, 2005
I wish my world will be a better place, less stress, more fun! Haha, I must be dreaming, yea, dreaming for a better future. Who doesn't want it? I just hope that my family can get through the financial crisis, yea.
My brothers and I have agreed to fork up $100 every month to help my father with the expenses. Ok la, for the last few months, I've been giving my father some $$ for expenses and now, it's even better, there are 3 of us helping out. My mother also chip in some money since my father is the one who pay for most of the family expenses. Alright, it is not that bad after all since all of us r doing our part to help. I shall see better days ahead huh. I must be more thrifty too.
Initially, I was feeling quite stressed cos I must worry abt school work ah, FYP, O level Maths and yes, Money! I must think on the positive side, yea, things will get better! Now is concentrate on O level maths 1st, schoolwork and FYP. After that, I shall work hard to earn more $$. Ok, that's the plan.
Fanny Go Go Go! :X
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Friday, October 07, 2005
Hmm, this week is a tiring week. Never in my poly life that I feel so exhausted and drained out when it is only the first week of sch. I shall start with Monday. Monday's lesson was on intrusion detection and many of us got a C on that day. I heard that someone actually got an A, aiyo, sian. Y the fac demoralize us by giving us this kind of grade, so sian. Some more, for that day’s lesson, we end up going home at 4 plus instead, aiyo, so late sia since we usually end lesson around 3 plus. After that, when I reached home, the more sian thing is I heard my father lost a job opportunity. Aiyo, so suay sia, jobless for 1 month liao le, haiz.
Then came Tuesday where me, Junie, Mali, Ying Pei and Cai Cai were in the same team. The good thing is we nv kana the *durian* as our fac, lolx. But anyway, we were still shagged cos the problem wasn’t easy. There’s a lot of reading to be done and the presentation was more like a debate, haha. We were practically firing qns to one another and trying hard to defend our own stand.In the evening, I went to kbox with xian zhi’s bf and frenz. Wow, was practically very high at the last few songs as waimum and I were screaming away while singing *I don’t wanna miss a thing* and *yi liao bai liao*, lolx. But I feel very happy and liberated as it’s a good way to relieve the stress.
I went out with ting on wed and we went to a club called *Queen* at boat quay. We paid $5 as the cover charge and were given the privilege of having free drinks till 2 am, haha. But initially, we were very bored as not many people were around. Then came a group of businessman who actually wanna play pool with us, haha. I was trying to reject as I feel giddy after abt 2 drinks but still end up playing with them. I pick some skills from the playing though I feel giddy, haha and we went home at 11 as we had sch on the following day.
Hmm, went to meet the supervisor with selvan on Thursday and was sian know that the project we were doing was very difficult, aiyo. Thursday lesson was a torture also as I didn’t expect the module to be so difficult. The fac also request us to wear formal for her lesson every week, sian! I don’t want to wear my working clothes again just for the lesson but seems like I’m left with no choice. The fac is strict too so if we don’t wear formal, our grades will be downgraded.
Finally, today is a Friday. Ok, I end up in the same team as the *K* guy together with Wan, Zin and Gary. I was really sian diao man. Haiz, just hope that the next few weeks *he* don’t do funny stuff can le. I’m ok with the rest of the team, haha, but was surprised the way gary do his stuff. He was from engineering and I heard him saying that their presentations can cover up to 40-50 slides. Wow, amazing huh? Is there a need to do so much when ppt is supposed to be short and concise?lolx
Erm, seems like the engineering students in our class had diff style of doing research. For us, we will cover up what we think is needed but for them, they will go in depth of the topic that will cover the topics learnt for next week, lolx. This is interesting, haha, I thought most students will limit their slides to a certain number if possible cos things that are ought to be learnt later should be covered in later weeks instead. If not, we will end up learning too many things at one go and had trouble focusing on the main points.
Ok, I shall stop here, lolx, wow, write so much sia.
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Friday, September 30, 2005
These days been working, haha, lazy to go online and no time to write my blog. Later going work again, so sian! Actually yest wanna go out sing at partyworld with my frenz but end up I cant make it, due to work. Yea, have to do price tag for my brand and my colleague need to do stock return in the storeroom and end up having to stay extra 2 hrs.Ok la, at least OT got $$, not so bad but still sad, cant enjoy my last week of hols. Haha, and my maths also, nv study much also, cos work liao, reach home also tired and lazy to study. Think tmr have to work full shift again, cos I'm alone, sob sob, can somebody come and help me? lolx
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Friday, September 16, 2005
Hmm, alright, been coughing like siao these days. Though I've seen the doctor, the medicine that r given doesn't help much, haiz, maybe I'm immune to the medicine. Whatever! Didn't sleep well last night due to the constant coughing and blocked nose. I have to wake up early to go toshiba to fix lappy. Met up with junie and we went there together. The procedure was pretty fast as not many people were around and the person told us to wait for 3 days for collection of lappy. Took a short nap in the afternoon and was feeling more refreshed, heez. I called up my colleague to say that I'm not going work today as I feel terrible and lousy. I feel bad to say that to her as yest nite, I've agree to help her cover the work shift till 9.30 but yet today, I cant go for work. Hmm, shouldn't have agree to help in the first place when the fact is I'm sick. Arghh, sick sick sick, sian.
Yea, yest went out again with fren to esplanade, haha. Both of us went to play *drum mania* at the arcades in marina square and marina south. Haha, I'm ok with the beginner stage ut practically sucks at the *standard* stage while playing at marina south. I was always confused with the timing, haha. I think is because I'm not familiar with the song too and yea, practise. I need to practise more. Yea, for O level maths too, I must practise! Go! go! go!
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
Alright, I'm sick again. Got flu and cough, damn it, being sick really sucks to the core! The sinsen whom I've visited actually told me that I'm very weak and need tonics for nourishments. Anyway, seems like eating more veggies and fruits doesn't make me a healthier person, haha. I will try to take good care of my body, yea, wont die so easily.
Hmm, last week went to watch * one more chance* with ting at princess in bedok, haha. I was crying during the movie, gosh, this is the second time I've cried watching a movie. The first time is while watching the korean movie"brotherhood", and I cry like siao. *One more Chance* had some parts which r really touching and of cos, not forgetting that its funny too. I've actually learnt a *hokkien song* from the movie, lolx. The song goes * nan jia hum ah, nan jia hum ah, nan pang sai, nan pang sai, hum jia sai ah, hum jia sai ah, nan jia hum, nan jia hum*, hahaha. Please correct me if I'm wrong, lolx.
Yea, I know its lame and disgusting but its damn funny, lolx. Those who watched the movie le will be familiar with the song, hehe. U wanna learn, I can teach u, wahaha! Ok, last week also went for ktv with ting ah, gary, amos, and 2 of amos frenz, Fabian and Wu Hao. Lolx, had fun with them while we havoc at party world. We went to play some pool also. Well, I practically sucks at pool and maybe plus the fact that its not my day, which explains the freaking lousy playing of pool that day. Hmm, I’m also lousy at playing the drums in the arcade, must focus and improve, lolx.
Went to watch *Herbie, fully loaded* with my frenz also, haha. Ok la, the show was funny, with an expected ending, and I shall stop writing for the moment. Going out le! Woo hoo!!
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Thursday, September 08, 2005
Finally, this is a decent entry from me, after about 2 months plus of *hibernation*, lolx. Sian, went to see the *sinsen* aka the Chinese physician this morning for my back. Arghh, it starts to hurt again yesterday when I’m working, so suay man. Yup, it hurts again due to the bad fall I had in April and it comes back to haunt me again, haiz. The sinseh said I will need to see him again to make sure that my bones are in place as they have gone out of place due to the impact of the fall. Well well, gonna spend another 20 bucks again, arghh, gonna be broke, haha.
Cos I’m using my own $$ to pay, everything I pay myself, haha, quite proud of myself cos I use the $$ that I earn myself to pay for all of my expenses but, kinda stressful also, lolx, cos my parents never give me $$ ever since I started working two years ago. So I must praise myself more now, to make me feel better and more motivated to earn more, haha, sounds silly huh. Aiya, no choice, must learn to be independent, cos my parents cant even fend for themselves, plus the fact that my father now is jobless. The money doesn’t just fall from the sky.
So, I must be more careful in spending my $$ and try to help with the family expenses whenever I can. The lucky thing is, I’ve got the $$ from the bursaries that I’ve received from the past two years to tide over the crisis, phew, but seems like this year, I have no luck with the bursaries so far. I have applied 2 times but none is successful. Hee, hopefully, I can get the award from the community centre. The award is $1000, wow, money money, hahaha. And yes, I’ve almost won $100 from the big sweep. It seems that I have no luck to win cos the numbers always come out with 1 digit difference, diao. The Wei Jian audition number *3515* also came out, ah, me and my frenz y never thought of buying, so wasted.
I must pia for my O level maths also!! Anybody care to give me free Maths tuition? In return, I shall sing some nice songs for ya, wahaha! Ok, I shall stop here for the moment.
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Saturday, September 03, 2005
Blog under construction, haha. Will update it by next week.
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Wahaha, come in write for fun, actually got a lot of things to write but dunno what to start with.
My bog getting "rusty" le, will update soon!
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
Haha, damn long time nv blog le!Cos I'm busy and kinda lazy to write though I got a lot of thoughts in my mind, lolx. Been working and busy doing projects and studying for my Maths but luckily, still have some time for myself to go out and relax with my frenz, yea!
Yea man, was sad a week ago when I knew *the guy* got gf le, though i kept telling myself that it doesn't matter, trying to be strong huh but I guess, I still cant fight back that mixed feelings of disappointment and guilt. His *gf* is a year 1 student, wow, was shocked that he got a gf so fast but anyway, things r unpredictable. I’m kinda over the whole matter already cos there’s no point thinking so much about it. Just that, I haven apologise to him yet but now its even harder, haha, haiz whatever, I just have to take one step at a time.
I feel like rebonding my hair but I still have doubts about doing it, haha, as I’m afraid that if my hair is too straight, it will look weird on me, God, this is difficult man.
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Friday, May 20, 2005
Ok, this time is for real. The food court where my father works is calling it quits at the end of June. Well, it is so unpredictable. My mum’s salary has been reduced and now my father is gonna be jobless soon. My mum has just received a letter today, calling her to go for urine test again. Hopefully the results will be of some relief to us. I gave my father $100 to help with the expenses. If possible, next month I will try to give more if its within my limits.
Haha, well, seems like I’ve been talking about my *downs* in life. Haiz, but no choice. I cant possibly go around telling people that I am very pathetic now, need money, need time and this and that. I don’t want people to sympathize me and think that I’m trying to gain sympathy. People will grow sick of hearing about these sad things since they’ve got their own problems too. When U hear this kind of things, u will feel sad and the person talking about it will feel even worse as it reminds the person of the difficulties. Not that I don’t wanna share but it is just that, since going to school is enjoyable as I can meet my friends and focus my mind on the schoolwork, I can set my mind on something else instead of just grumbling about my problems. This wont solve the problems. The solution is try to tackle with the problems and think of ways to solve. Action speaks louder than words.
At least now, I think I’m very fortunate to have such doting parents and friends who cares about me. Like when I’m sick, they will keep asking me how I’m feeling and wants me to go and see the doctor. And for today, I really enjoyed myself to be in the same team as Marilyn, Selvan and Xiangwei. We had fun doing the wireless module and kept trying the program till we succeed.
Anyway, who doesn’t have their own problems? It all boils down to the intentions of the person and the will to do the things they wanna do.
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