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this is the last of illusions
this is the final trace of innocence
if I'm caught in the middle
i know it will be the end of me




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Friday, April 01, 2005

Well, I must acknowledge that my luck is down these days with the series of unfortunate events happening. First is O level maths. I got a D7 again which means that I have to retake again. Next is news of my father losing job after March. Thirdly is got my job thingy whereby the uniform thing make me very pek che and kana said by the manager for not wearing the promoter badge. After that comes me and the Byon thingy which I made a big mess out of it. Subsequently, I got a bad lot from the temple at bugis about 2 weeks ago which says that this year will be a rocky and tough year for me and I should be cool and calm instead of being rash in handling things. Hence, it does makes sense after all as I kana hit my head while taking pics this week and the worst, is I fall down. My back still hurts.

Then yesterday night I reach home, I started crying. Dunno y. When I’m on the train to home, I already feel like crying. Got the urge to cry cos I’m really sick and tired of all these rubbish that’s happening. I cried while listening to Stefanie Sun Liao Jie. Haiz, just feel very sad. Really sad. Yea, I may appear strong and cheerful, as if nothing had happened but deep in my heart, I know a lot of things are troubling me. I do feel sad. I keep telling people not to think too much and be happy. But look at me, I’m the same as them. Just that I dun really show it on the surface. Like wearing a mask right? I guess no matter hwo a person says he is strong, there’s always a weak side of the person. Sometimes, I really wonder how can I make myself feel better. Like yesterday, I went to sch just for the sake of going, never really thought of doing much work. Made a mess doing the titles in photoshop, for the video we did in mac workshop. Then, during team building after sch, we played games and my team ended up to be the last team. Oh well, is that bad luck? Should be. I just pray hard that things gonna get better.

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